You would think that the joy of being pregnant would erase the traumatic ordeal that had been infertility. It didn’t. Don’t get me wrong.  I was overwhelmed with happiness that I was finally pregnant, but I was also consumed by fear.  I’m aware that most women experience fear of loss. Pregnancy is scary.   However, I truly believe fear is compounded when you’ve had a loss or gone through infertility (or worse, both). The desire to be a Mother was so encompassing that I couldn’t imagine living without realizing this dream.  Every ounce of my future happiness was dependent upon … Continue reading Experiencing Infertility PTSD (part 1 – pregnancy)