Experiencing Infertility PTSD (part 1 – pregnancy)

You would think that the joy of being pregnant would erase the traumatic ordeal that had been infertility. It didn’t. Don’t get me wrong.  I was overwhelmed with happiness that I was finally pregnant, but I was also consumed by fear.  I’m aware that most women experience fear of loss. Pregnancy is scary.   However, I truly believe fear is compounded when you’ve had a loss or gone through infertility (or worse, both). The desire to be a Mother was so encompassing that I couldn’t imagine living without realizing this dream.  Every ounce of my future happiness was dependent upon … Continue reading Experiencing Infertility PTSD (part 1 – pregnancy)

IVF for the 3rd time.

After my miscarriage and the subsequent discovery that it had been a ‘blighted ovum’ which was not compatible with life, I started dreaming of ways to do one more round of IVF. I was in the process of selling the house I owned with my Mother (but didn’t live in) and buying another property where we could both live in separate abodes. This certainly wasn’t leaving me with any disposable income but what it did do was to clear my debt.  In order to qualify for a mortgage I had to roll my existing debts into my new mortgage.  My … Continue reading IVF for the 3rd time.

more IVF and a Loss….

First off let me start with a trigger warning because Loss is mentioned and I know that can be hard for a lot of women.   My RE was perplexed as to why I wasn’t getting pregnant.  He decided he would do  ERA testing.  This is where they take a scrape from your uterus and send it off to establish the ideal time for transferring an embryo. At the time I did this, it was in early stages and my sample had to be sent to Spain for analysis!  I remember thinking it was very strange that now Spain was … Continue reading more IVF and a Loss….

A Guide to Understanding IVF

While every protocol for IVF is different there are some steps that are pretty much the same for everyone.  If you’re just starting out here’s what you can expect; Initial consult with RE to discuss protocol Wait for start of period. You may already be taking estrogen/birth control pill. Vaginal Ultrasound to assess baseline Start injections Another Vaginal Ultrasound to see how you’re doing and to tweak meds if necessary More injections Another Ultrasound, maybe add in another shot to stop you ovulating. More injections until they finally tell you to do trigger shot. 36 hours after trigger shot you … Continue reading A Guide to Understanding IVF