When you are trying to get pregnant and are in the dreaded two week wait it’s impossible not to symptom spot: Are my boobs more sore than usual? Am I feeling extra tired? Is that an implantation cramp that I … Continue reading On the craziness that is pregnancy
You would think that the joy of being pregnant would erase the traumatic ordeal that had been infertility. It didn’t. Don’t get me wrong. I was overwhelmed with happiness that I was finally pregnant, but I was also consumed by fear. I’m aware that most women experience fear of loss. Pregnancy is scary. However, I truly believe fear is compounded when you’ve had a loss or gone through infertility (or worse, both). The desire to be a Mother was so encompassing that I couldn’t imagine living without realizing this dream. Every ounce of my future happiness was dependent upon … Continue reading Experiencing Infertility PTSD (part 1 – pregnancy)
I spent three years deciding whether or not to become a Mother on my own. During that time I worried a lot about how I would tell people that I had gotten knocked up by a sperm donor. The words … Continue reading How to announce you’re pregnant via a sperm donor.
Whilst this is the second time I have written a blog, it is the first time that I have confidently put a blog into the world to be followed by all and any. In this respect I am seriously new … Continue reading The Sunshine Blogger Award
After my miscarriage and the subsequent discovery that it had been a ‘blighted ovum’ which was not compatible with life, I started dreaming of ways to do one more round of IVF. I was in the process of selling the house I owned with my Mother (but didn’t live in) and buying another property where we could both live in separate abodes. This certainly wasn’t leaving me with any disposable income but what it did do was to clear my debt. In order to qualify for a mortgage I had to roll my existing debts into my new mortgage. My … Continue reading IVF for the 3rd time.